Comprehending The Incomprehensible

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Originally uploaded by Adagio.

This appointment is random. Indiscriminate. Is it fair? The question makes about as much sense as Is blue hexagonal or square? It is a question with no answer. OK then, reasonable. Is it reasonable? But reason suggests rationale. Suggests a mind. Suggests thought. Implies conscious deliberation. Given that premise, would it not then follow that someone or something singled me out? Deliberately. Engineered the situation. A malevolent hand. From the safety of the universe's back row seats. Or, perhaps you prefer the notion of a benevolent father figure? A sort of divine vivisector. If that theory comforts you, good luck. Not me. Random appointment is easier to swallow. A bitter pill, as opposed to rat poison.

Whatever the theory, there's no doubt my journey is solo. An involuntary rebirth. No twin holding my hand. A birth canal lined with thorns.